3 years ago, I was just having a great conversation with my form mate that our eyes met when he was sitting the table across me. We knew who each other was but we don't talk until that time. We were talking about all the things on earth that we could just laugh about. He was really a kind and funny guy that who can make me laugh all day just with his lame jokes. Before he left, he gave me his phone number and he asked for mine so that we could contact each other back for another conversation and be closer friends. I gave my number and took his, we then left the place and headed home.
During the night, we messaged and he called me up. We were on the phone for hours chatting away. We have got more than 100 messages just in 2 hours. Then he asked me " Hey, wanna go on a date with me tomorrow?" At that time, I really didn't know what to say , my mind was totally blank like a white piece of paper. So I told him to hold on and I went on chat box with my best friend who gives me great advice which is Michelle. I asked her whether is it good idea to go out with him since he is the same class as she is. She told me why not , since he is a good guy a good one she reassured me by typing them in block letters. Therefore, I got on the phone again and answered him with a "YES!". He told me that he would come and walk with me to the station and we will take the train down to Rummage for a short shopping trip and we head off to the cinema down the street for a movie. At that time, I was so excited till the extend that I told him I got to leave since I needed to do something but in reality I just wanted to pick the best outfit and bag to look great just for him.
We then hung up. I started my clothes hunting. I took out every single piece of clothing in my closet. Then , I tried different hair styles, make-up to suit it and to resolve my look I went out on a date with no make-up as I thought it would be good for me to look natural to tell him I am who I am and that's me. For my hair, I just ended up tying a normal ponytail with a ribbon hair tie. Before anything happens, I got on the chat box once again with Michelle and asked questions about him, so that I am all prepared for tomorrow's date. Without any further a do , I slept at 10:30PM to make sure I wouldn't wake up late the next morning and miss my date.
Next morning, I woke up at eight in the morning when my date is at 12 noon. I woke up so early is just to get myself well prepared. At 12 noon on the dot, Christopher came to pick me up and thereafter we left and our day started just like that.
By around 2 in the afternoon we arrived at Rummage after a great lunch at DOME.
He bought me and himself a ring and he told me " Roxanne, can you be my girlfriend?"
I was blushing at that time, I couldn't say a thing so I just nodded. We just began our relationship just like that.
We held hands and walk down the street to catch a movie in the cinema. Once the movie ended he took the train and send me home before he left.
Once I reached home, he texted me " I had a lot of fun with you today. I hope you enjoyed it too. :D" That message made my heart melt so I texted back " Yes, I enjoyed it very much. :D" .
He called instead of messaging me asking whether do I want to head over to his house tomorrow after school. I told him okay and I asked him what for. He told me just come over he have a surprise for me. So then , I went to his house after school the next day.
We reached his house at around 4 in the evening. Parents and sisters were on holiday and left him at home alone. He poured out 2 cups of orange juice and we sat in front of the sofa hugging each other and talking.
He then suddenly held my hands and brought me up to his room and pushed me on the bed. We lay on the bed looking into each others eye without saying a word.
I think twice before anything.Questions of what if kept popping out in my mind so I got up and wanted to leave but he grabbed my hand saying "its not going to hurt, its okay , trust me." I just believed him and I gave my first time to him.
Now, the worst thing happened. The test cam back . All my positive thoughts just broken into pieces when I knew that he left. He change school , no letter , no phone call, no messages no nothing. At that very moment, I thought myself , what if I just said No.
Now, I am holding a child at the age of 18. What would people think of me? They would think that I am a slut but they never knew what had happen to me at the age of 15. I got tricked into a relationship by a boy that I thought he was a good , smart and funny guy that was a form mate of mine.
I walk on streets, going to college , after college rushing for work just to earn that penny to raise up my child that Christopher left behind. I now have no more respect by all the people out there but I am not dead or saddened by it its because I know that God is here with me and I have full support from my love ones.
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