Hey all, this story was written at a very gushing moment since the idea just came up.This is a very short story. The things aren't really in place but I hope you will get it still.
I have been always asking myself why did I fall for you? You are just an ordinary person that anybody out there can be actually better than you. But I seriously can't find out why by just questioning myself. I have actually tried questioning myself for the past one week when I know that you are going to get married to another girl just in another 2 weeks. I am still stuck here just because I want to get the best answer to please myself and tell myself to forget about you. Been there, done that but it didn't work.
I just lay on my bed and looking back all the good memories that we had together while hugging onto the bear that you have given me just makes me feel that you are still by my side. Those are just dreams once I woke up from my nap when I was thinking back at the good old memories, they are all gone and can't be returned back to me but I will cherish them as you made my heart fonder at least once and made me felt worth it to you and to the world.
I remember you telling me that you will be with me till my hair grows white and all my teeth fall off but you lied. You did not keep your promise but instead you have chosen a different path. I have been feeling terrible, holding my aching heart and questioning myself why didn't I tell you my feelings earlier? I can tell you now even though I know they will never ever reach you anymore. I have been growing feelings for you day and night since the day you first smiled at me and told me that you loved me more that anything. What are they now? They are just plainly words without actions. They are nothing, you lied.
Looking back at the years that we were kids playing at the field together, makes me felt special and felt that I know you at the very moment that our eyes met. No matter what we do we just seemed to click so easily. Once I remember you asked me " Do you think we are weird? We are always hanging with each other but not other people?" I told you "No, its normal. Its normal that we are always being seen together." Now we are adults, you chose different path when you told me when we were young that we will see each other grow old together.
Today on the 3rd of July 2010 things will be different since its a special day for you.Why? Today you are going to stand infront of all your friends and relatives with a happy face , making a vow to God to the next person standing to you which it isn't me and seeing you blessed. How can I take that? This always happens and the questions of what if always comes " what if I didn't met you and fell for you?" " what if I was the person standing next to you?" By seeing you leave, all the existents of what if's just doesn't matter anymore.
Anyhow, I am giving you all the blessings that I have and leaving you and cherishing all the best moments you have given me by not holding your hand and be by your side. The question of "why did I fall for you" just doesn't mean anything to me at all now, at this moment. Why? because I can't take your hand and run away with you and turn back time.
Eventhough you are faraway from me , just because of your eternal happiness I am willing to sacrifice my all for you however lonely it will make me and painful it can be.
"Bye Christopher, I 'm leaving. Heavenly Father, I 'm coming."
The End.
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