Count today exactly2 years ago, I was left being difficult as I needed to make a tough yet painful decision within 24 hours.At that very moment of time, I was holding my aching heart while wiping off my tears that was flowing out from my eyes. I was questioning myself so hard why did all this even happening to me? My mind was totally filled with arguments with all of them popping out at once and I felt that the whole odds were against me.
At half past 9, I walked out off my room holding on tightly to my phone and ran off to Amy's house and grabbed onto her tightly and didn't know what to do. She asked me why, I didn't answer but just plainly crying. Amy heard and saw, she didn't bother asking me why but just allowed me to cry and listened to what I had to bottled out.
"Nothing, just needed someone to be here for me at this very moment."
That night, I didn't return home and Amy was up the whole night being with me. My phone suddenly rang, screens showed up Michelle's name and thereafter Christopher's name. Once I saw I started to cry again as I didn't know what to do. I knew that Michelle was my closest friend and I am not suppose to do this to her but I seriously do love him and I can't control myself. Whichever decision I make will just hurt everyone of us and that is what I don't want to happen between us as we all love each other.
Once I woke up, sun is already up and its time to due with this tough situation. I decided not to tell anyone my decision even Amy. I just left it unsaid and lugged my suitcase and walked to the train station, left.
"Hey, where are you now? I am at your house, knocked several times but no one picked up the door."
"Hey, I am sorry but its hard. Be with Michelle and forget about things that ever happened to us." I told him and off the line and hopped into the train.
He then called again, I missed it on purpose. Tears started flowing out again as the memories that we had together kept flowing out in my mind. I just looked out the window and told myself all these memories will be cherished as he made my heart fonder but I can't do this to my best friend.
A moment later, a messaged from him came in saying
"Roxanne, I am sorry for putting you up in this difficult situation. I didn't mean too. But seriously, I realised that I love you more than Michelle. I need to make that so clear as water. All these started happening since that time when me and her was having a problem you were there for me. I fell for you at that time."
I then replied in short text message.
"hey, its okay about that. Be with her, I can't do this to my best friend. She means a lot to me. I fell for you too, but seriously we have to stop. I am leaving."
He called again, I cried.
" where are you leaving to?"
"I am leaving to somewhere happier. No tough decisions needed and facing you all. All this makes it hard."
"I will be waiting for you till you come back as I want you to be my valentine."
I just hung up the call once again and couldn't careless anymore.
2 years after , I was already living in Kyoto, Japan. No one found me, knew me until recent month dated on the 30th of June, Christopher brought Michelle along and we met at a park.
"Michelle, let's break up and be best friends. I am doing this cause I have fell for your best friend , Roxanne. I am so sorry, I have hurt you. Thanks for all those happy memories that you have given me." he held my hands.
Michelle teared up and said
" I am okay, be happy guys. I am giving you all my blessings."
Roxanne ran off while Christopher was chasing after. He shouted
" Where are you going? You know I am doing with all I have, you know it! Why are you leaving?"
I ignored and stand in the middle of the junction and waited for the moment to come while saying
" Christopher, I love you and thanks for all the memories that you have given me. I am not worth for you. I am leaving. My heavenly father, I am coming......"
The End.
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